Currently…

..yeah, lately I’ve been getting nightmares.. like, dreams that trouble me a lot =S can that be considered as a nightmare? well, i don’t like those dreams, so they are considered nightmares to me.. its like, i even cry in my dreams and when i wake up, i’m really crying!!! and it feels all so real.. =S weird..and like i dream of the weirdest and depressing things ..like last night i dreamnt of  .. i dont know..weird things..but it makes sense in reality.. well, sorta.. its like all my problems mixing together..its sooo weird.. yeah,..so many ‘weirds’ in this paragraph..sue me, i’m weird

anyway..Im terrified i wont reach the expected marks for my examination.. feel so useless.. i have like 2 more papers and im not ready for either one of them. I’m like stressed on the inside but I don’t seem to show it,.. or maybe i do - by snapping.

Is it really too late ? i hope not..coz i’m still like trying to get things straight with those two papers..Don’t know where to start.. and it’s not like i can fully focus on it either..feel so angry at myself..

Not a productive day today.. woke up at 8, studied a bit, got ready and went to college at eleven to attend extra accounts class.. came back home at 2, ate lunch and watched ‘house’ and CSI-NY till like 4.. and then i started studying again.. and now i don’t feel like doing anything.. i don’t even want to think..coz when i start to think, i think of things that.. i dont know, just worry me..bleagh.. yeah, twisted and complicated girl I am

So, i think i shall go now, and i dont know.. choose what to do.. bleagh..

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