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HAH! I BET MOST OF U DON’T KNOW WHERE SANDAKAN IS!!!! *wow…the font size is huge*.. yeah anyway, a lil bit of Geography lessons now.. Sandakan is in Sabah. Get it now? ……..*cricket silence*.. oh why did i even bother? it’s not like anyone cares !!! * YOU SHOULD! GOSH! ITS IN MSIA, U ULU PPL*

….anyway…i just ate prawns =S so im a bit… chatty? .. yeah whatever.. for those who know me, i love my prawns. esp fresh SABAH prawns.. fresh red steamed …boiled..whatever.. prawns.. with chili… yum….hypnotizing.. satisfying.. orgasmic…oh u know what i mean !

so anyway… lemme like type out my life for the past week or so. Kk. i’ll start of with .. last monday !.. OMGOSH !!!! i passed my driving test (=^.^=) WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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OOOOO *gasp*OOOOOOOOOO….ok getting old..

so yeah.. lemme tell u what happened !!.. kk.. i went.. with Asher, Joanna, and Zhi.. and mrs Ang =D

so we went.. and lined up and waited.. and waited..and waited.and i was hungry

so…. SUDDENLY THEY CALLED OUT "NOMBOR 121 something something Cassandra Lee something something slope parking" .. and i went..and waited.. like a dunggu. Why? Because I didn’t know it was ’self service’ to the cars; as in.. u didn’t have to wait to be called to go into the cars and go for the test..I thought the system was like that.. and apparently it wasn’t when some one else who got called out much later than me walked into the car. And i was like.. Oh. -.-   so like that la !!!.. SO ok.. i pandai pandai made my way to the front and waited for the next car. OH someone warned my about a blue car that was retarded and could cost me my licence.. so.. ngam ngam when i was like up front, the blue car appeared !!!!! and i was like…oh..no… so i bodoh bodoh look everywhere BUT at the Blue Car.. someone else went in =P

im so mean =P .. but yeah im sure everyone heard about that car’s reputation.. i mean.. pffttt..come on! .. lol..so ok..i hopped into the next one and started. i was so freaking nervous…started with the slope..and i was talking to myself. went up .. like damn slowly i thought my car was gonna roll back…BUT  it didn’t =) .. and up it went.. and i roughly estimated and stabbed at the clutch first and then the break with my foot and…….it was ok =P .. but u knw what !!!! the pegawai ppl weren’t looking at me..and i had to wait like 5 whole minutes ..and then they asked..NOMBOR APA… i shouted back NOMBOR 121. then he waved his hand and told me to goooooo ! woooo .. and down i went..and did parking…..

ok..parking.i talked to myself again.. and i nearly banged the pole…BUT  i didnt =) .. lol.. and i succeeded.. and then i did  3 point turn.. and it was ok..

im bored talking about this =S .. i’ll cut short.. the road test was ok.. except i was really scared and my feet were actually quite far from the pedals =P ..but it was ok la =P

so…the next day i flew to sabah..and.. yeah.. im sleeepppyyyy.. i think i shall continue.. tmr…or next week when i come back =P lol…

out.

helo helo!!!!!!! im gonna blog abt what happened yday and like today! so…i’ll start of with yesterday..prom.. it was ok.. food was.. ok.. overall.. it was ok. Everyone who went looked great though !! Yeah… ok.. =P thats as much as i can say.. it was fun la =P

so today.. planned to meet caryn, preetha, zhi and kenny for lunch at 12.. but i woke up at 12 =P .. sooo.. yeah..but when i stepped out of my room… I SMELLED GAS!!!!! like from the kitchen stove kinda gas.. and i panicked!!! coz i was alone at home.. and im not good in the kitchen!!!! i thought it was gonna blow !!!!so like i called my mum 3 times, and she didn’t pick up.. so i called my dad and he told me to open the windows…and i was afraid it’ll blow!! cz like u knw how in the movies some kinda gas mixes with something else and it blows ? yeah, i thought that would happen, but it didnt =p  .. so yeah..then 10 minutes later my maid came home..and told me.. ‘no smell aso’ !.. and i was like [in my mind la]‘ DUH!!! I OPENED THE WINDOWS SO OBVIOUSLY THERE’S NO SMELL !!’ .. pffftttt.. so yeah..

after it was all cleared and stuff.. i rushed and got ready and walked to pelita’s half asleep..and managed to eat smth.. and then walked home..and uploaded pics.. Then, my dad called and asked my mum and i if we wanted to go for a ride ….. to bukit tinggi! lol.. =P since i had nothing else to do, i was like ok then.

So.. we went.. to bkt tinggi… and i was feeling all woozy and sleepy and totally uncomfy.. i think i don’t do too well with windy roads.. bleagh =S .. but yea.. we went up.. and it was cooling..then we went to the club house..and it was nice and breezy..and memories started creeping in my mind…memories of me waiting for my dad to finish playing golf..memories of me and my barbie doll in bkt tinggi.. memories of me in the library.. and the swimming pool in bkt tinggi.. lol… =P i dont know why its still in my mind =P.. ok yeah..then in the club house all three of us were hungry .. so we ate =D

My mum ordered some sandwhich thingie with yummy fries.. and my dad and i shared ice kacang =P .. when it was already pretty chilly.. oh, i dont do too well with cold either =p but yeah..it was goodddd.. coz like it was cold and all..and like we had yummy food.. so.. it was satisfying..and like while waiting for the food, i like dozed off… felt so comfy… oh and the view was nice ! =D

after that, we headed to my parent’s apt in bkt tinggi and checked it out.. then went to some deer rabbit farm.. we didn’t go in.. just hung around the car park..coz i pestered my dad about letting me drive his car round and round the car park..and so he said ok =P my mum didn’t wanna stay in the car tho.. so she waited outside =P .. and so i went round and round in my dads car till he told me to stop cz he was dizzy =P but yeah, wooooo =P ok.. then we drove down.. and had dinner ..which was … aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh..yummy.. i loved the pork man.. it was like bacon cooked in some black sauce.. *thumbs up with corny smile* it was goooooood!

yeah.. that was my day .. =P never thought of actually doing that. =P there goes my day of chilling at home =P oo the sunset was really pretty today too!!.. but my camera died on me..so i coudn’t take the pretty sight..

but yeah..anyway.. i think i’ll crash now.. !!! bye bye ~

Life in the world is actually really dark without light..unfortunately,i lost my light.

Hello~ Im surprised Im actually awake at this time of the day.. uh.. its like 11.35am, but considering i slept at 2 this morning i thought i’d have like 16 hours of sleep, but i guess not. Anyway, yea ..yday was UVNATION!!.. ok, i’ll just type out what i did the whole of yday! bear with me

Ok, i woke up and went for bfast at some babanyonya place with my parents, then came home, and rested for a while and went for a Malay wedding (Dad’s staff) in like Gombak. and then i rushed home cause fimy was supposed to be at my house at like 5 so we can go at like 5.30. But she was stuck in a jam, and while waiting i ate maggi mee in the mug. And then she came, and like my dad drove us nearing BSC when Chrystal called and asked if we wanted a lift, and I thought of not memafankingkan my dad by driving us all the way there coz he was gonna entertain guests at home, I said ok. So my dad drove us back home and we waited for Joanne and Chrys. And they came, and we went to meet Dee May and off we went.

It was effing jam, and we were making up stories about people in the other cars and other random stuff like that. It was so hard to find parking but in the end we found one at like the side of the road and we had a hilarious laughing session when Fimy was struggling with the car shades.. u should have been there to see how funny it was.

Yea, so we left the car, and we noticed a lot of uh.. funny people. Yeah.. then we managed to go into the carpark and hung around.. and .. yeah..just did what other people did in UVNATION. It was so freaking packed.. and i swear i nearly passed out in the crowd…i dont do too well with ultra packed crowds.. yeah..but every now and then, there would be a breeze and omgosh, that was the best feeling ever.

The thing i hated most was people smoking, where they’d blow into ur face..bleagh. But yeah, the music was awsome, the atmosphere towards the end was pumping.. it was great.. but.. i wasn’t all that weee. Bleagh.

Yeah, then i had to go home, and I had to find my way to the connecting bridge where my dad picked me up. U see, I knw my way there, just that by that time, everything was shut. as in they completely shut the new wing and the old wing .. and i was lost.. and alone. And  it was really freaky cz like there wasn’t many people in the mall at that time.. and it was pretty dark.. and it came to a point where i was like the only living soul in the area i was in.. and i was like ‘oh shit, if anything happened to me now, no one would know’, so i like ran (barefooted- yea, i took out my heels, coz it hurt so much) towards a guard i saw. And as i was walking there came this group of like guys..like a whole bunch of them.. i was like freaked out..but like didn’t look at them at all.. but yeah, i safely reached the guard and asked for directions.

and so happened there was this guy  from my old school who was sesat like me too …or maybe not as sesat as me, but yeah .. he showed me the directions to the bridge and he went to the mamak somewhere else. So yeah, that was my night. Oh, and the only meals i ate yday were nasi lemak for bfast, maggi mee in the cup, and one slice of bread… Feel so lethargic now. And prom’s tonight. DOn’t know if i can tahan..

And i’ve decided not to blog about my emo feelings and shit like that anymore. Now, I don’t see any point of telling the whole world how i really feel because somehow, they’ll always find out some story and Im not gonna be wasting my time typing my side of the story and how I am human as well, and how i really feel. It’s not like it matters anyway..

So yea..guess i’ll go and pamper myself for tonight. Hopefully it’ll be great..and hopefully i’ll be really happy…okidoki ~~ bye bye~~

..yeah, lately I’ve been getting nightmares.. like, dreams that trouble me a lot =S can that be considered as a nightmare? well, i don’t like those dreams, so they are considered nightmares to me.. its like, i even cry in my dreams and when i wake up, i’m really crying!!! and it feels all so real.. =S weird..and like i dream of the weirdest and depressing things ..like last night i dreamnt of  .. i dont know..weird things..but it makes sense in reality.. well, sorta.. its like all my problems mixing together..its sooo weird.. yeah,..so many ‘weirds’ in this paragraph..sue me, i’m weird

anyway..Im terrified i wont reach the expected marks for my examination.. feel so useless.. i have like 2 more papers and im not ready for either one of them. I’m like stressed on the inside but I don’t seem to show it,.. or maybe i do - by snapping.

Is it really too late ? i hope not..coz i’m still like trying to get things straight with those two papers..Don’t know where to start.. and it’s not like i can fully focus on it either..feel so angry at myself..

Not a productive day today.. woke up at 8, studied a bit, got ready and went to college at eleven to attend extra accounts class.. came back home at 2, ate lunch and watched ‘house’ and CSI-NY till like 4.. and then i started studying again.. and now i don’t feel like doing anything.. i don’t even want to think..coz when i start to think, i think of things that.. i dont know, just worry me..bleagh.. yeah, twisted and complicated girl I am

So, i think i shall go now, and i dont know.. choose what to do.. bleagh..

GOMENNASAI

What I thought wasn’t mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn’t cause I
Wasn’t allowed

Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought wasn’t all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

Gomennasai, for everything
Gomennasai, Gomennasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomennasai, I let you down

That’s how i feel inside..uh.. as in.. loud and .. um..flashy.. as in.. mmm .. i dunoe..but its not a good feeling thats for sure!! I"m all wonky. I just woke up..well..sorta..ok let me tell u about my nap.

It all started when it rained.. like damn heavily at around.. mmm 3. I thought the lightning won’t bother my comp tand i his time, but.. fifteen minutes later my comp started going all crackly. So i decided, it’s time to stop and take a nap, since u know its Oh-so-nice to sleep when its raining. And so i thought I’d get that feeling since I wasnt feeling happy and all.

Went to bed, and it was soooooo hot. Freaking air cond was sooooo hot. And i thot i’d fall asleep in 5 minutes. But nope, i think it took me like dunoe how long to fall asleep..or u knw, maybe i didn’t even sleep !!! maybe i was like semi concious.. i dont know. I didn’t feel like I was sleeping. Yeah.. and I didn’t get that warm comfy and secure feeling ur supposed to get when ur sleeping when its raining outside. All in all, it was a terrible nap. The worst I ever had so far. Argh…

Last night, I dreamnt my MeI,Al and I were ’shopping’ along this long stretch of road. Next thing i knew I was in Al’s bf’s car with Al sitting infront, her bf driving and me at the back. We were driving to some guys place call Matthew who so happened to stay in this really big bungalow near my place. I have no idea who this Matthew guy is, in my dreams and in reality. Pppffftt.. and.. then I woke up =S …weird..

Oh i found this new song that I like, ‘Boston’ by Augustana.

My exams are on Monday, and im not prepared for it…

Currently, things ain’t good…

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